Worry wart

I'm so worried about Lex's language skills even though we have him in speech therapy. I realized today I haven't heard him say hi or bye in a while (something he used to do anytime anyone waved to him) and he's only said Mama once in the past few weeks, when he fell down and skinned his elbow. He still babbles all the time and we "force" eye contact when we hand him things in that he has to look us in the eyes before he gets what he wants. I just don't know what to do to help him. I bought some cards with pictures and words on it to hopefully help in our understanding him and I try to get him to use his signs or words but it doesn't always work.

Who knew this Mommy thing would make me such a worry wart and slightly neurotic???

Why I love bye.tta... and other ramblings.

I've been on by.etta for 4 days and I've dropped a little more than 3 pounds with very little effort. I was told by the diabetic educator that on average her patients lose about 10-15 pounds in the first month of being on it. Then you add that I'm finally adjusting to synth.roid and I'm feeling pretty good. I need to get back on the wagon as far as exercise goes but that would require me actually getting up earlier than Lex most mornings.

Speaking of Lex my son it a nutcase. He went from sleeping until 8 most mornings to getting up no later than 6 and refusing to go to bed at his normal time. All I can figure is the sunlight is affecting his sleeping patterns because we have been outside more than normal due to nice weather (they have been at daycare too). He's also been a little harder for Nate to deal with, he tends to act out when his daddy is around. A prime example is what's going on right now, he runs up and shuts off the tv and cable box, Nate tells him no, removes him and turns them back on, and repeat. They missed speech therapy the other day because after I left for work Lex had a meltdown and they didn't make it out to the bus in time.

Tomorrow is my 6th wedding anniversary. Nate and I have our ups and downs but we have lasted this long so we can make it longer. I love my hubby, faults and all.

Some answers finally

I got a call back from Dr. Sprengler regarding my T3 and T4 levels and they were normal. This kind of threw her for a loop so she told me she was going to talk to the endocrinologist to find out what he would recommend. Today I was prescribed synth.roid and I'll check in with her in a couple of weeks to let her know how I'm doing. I hope this helps. Now I just need to keep up on the exercise since I've taken a couple days off to let my shoulder heal a bit. I haven't been eating as well but tomorrow I'm going grocery shopping so I'll have some more fresh fruit to snack on.

I'd like to make a request. If you are the praying type could you keep my brother and uncle in your prayers? They are both named Karl, my brother is heading to Afghanistan next month as a medic and my uncle is in Iraq as a communications specialist. I know they are doing their jobs for the country but I do worry. My brother worries me the most since as a medic he has to go off the base all the time whereas my uncle kind of stays put. My Aunt Jen (Uncle Karl's beautiful wife) has been so supportive even though she's the one that needs supporting. My parents are very worried about my brother and are regretting ever telling him that the Army would be good for him. Thanks in advance.

Let's play a game.

The name of the game is "What's wrong with Cate?"

Today I woke up like normal and started getting ready for work. While I was blow drying my hair I felt my muscle in my left shoulder lock up and then my hand got numb. This meant no work for me today. I went in and saw Dr. S in the sam practice as my favorite Dr. Sprengler and he gave me two injections of lidocaine to hopefully loosen up the muscle. It helped take of the edge for a little while but I am still pretty sore and took a muscle relaxer and pain killer to hopefully help a bit more.

I also asked about the results of the bloodwork I had drawn on the 6th since I'm impatient and hadn't gotten my letter yet. My hemoglobin A1c was great at 5.0 (this is how my blood sugar control has been for the last 3 months), my fasting glucose was 85 (again perfect), my lipids (cholesterol panel) were okay; I need to lower my triglycerides but no surprise there, the big surprise was my thyroid, I'm hypothyroid again, it was a massive swing from October when it was checked last. In October my result was 1.03 which is very normal, this last one was 5.83 (normal range goes to 4.0). So Dr. S said he'd tell Dr Sprengler he notified me of the results and ordered up the T4 and free thyroid to see what was going on with my thyroid this time. But in his feeling he thought I was just going to hypothyroid and eventually need medication. I should have guessed something was up since I've been exhausted lately but I chalked it up to lack of exercise, less than stellar diet and working more. I have a feeling synthroid is in my future.

Nate has been wonderful since school has gotten out for the summer. He takes Lex to speech therapy (and soon occupational therapy) and he's been helping with housework, making it so much easier for me to come home from work and play with Lex. He's taking tonight off to help me with Lex since I can barely carry my purse so I doubt that I could put him in the crib at night. I know sometimes I get down on him but he's a wonderful guy and I'm lucky to have him.

Congrats

I want to congratulate my friends Sarah and Angel on their good news. You two are both so deserving and I'm sending lots of sticky vibes.

Mommy guilt

After Lex's speech therapy today I'm experiencing a lot of guilt. Jack, his therapist, mentioned that he didn't think Lex was making as much progress as he was before. He also asked if we have an order for occupational therapy, we don't, because he thinks that a little occupational therapy would help with the speech. He wants us to continue trying to get Lex to do back and forth play and to sign "more" when he wants more of something, especially since Lex is looking for eye contact more. But with all this I'm feeling immense amounts of guilt. I feel guilty that we brought him to see a resident versus a pediatrician right off the bat. I feel guilty that we put him in front of the tv so much so we can get things done (cooking, cleaning and sleep for Nate). I feel guilty that I put him in the old daycare where he didn't have much interaction with the daycare owner since the tv was on all the time. I feel guilty that I agreed to pick up hours so that for the next month and a half I'll be working full time, cutting down the amount of time I can spend working on his speech and other "assignments" from therapy. I know this isn't all my fault and he'll never hold it against me but I still feel this way.

Making progress

Lex has gone to speech therapy 3 times so far and he's already making progress. His therapist Jack has noticed that with very little prompting now Lex will look us in the eyes to get what he wants. We are working on trying to teach him the sign for more and to do more back and forth play per recommendations of the therapist. I hope this means we are getting closer to words but I just don't know. Jack also said we'll be having Lex see Sheila who does the occupational therapy.

Little man went to see his pediatrician this week and she confirmed the he probably does have seasonal allergies so she advised we give him Zyrtec at least once daily so his eyes don't swell closed. I knew he was like me, most of my allergy symptoms are in my eyes.