Monday, January 26, 2009

No Good News

I tested this morning and the first test was a dud, no lines whatsoever. Second test was negative and spot was there to greet me right away. So I'm on to cycle number two. The difference this next cycle will be having the fertility monitor in order to tell me when to call my doc to do a follie check and possibly a trigger shot. I picked up my meds already so I'm just waiting for AF and my fertility monitor sticks (that were ordered two weeks ago and still haven't arrived... grrr).

My grandfather passed away on Saturday morning. This was a big shock. He went into the hospital a few days earlier and was put in ICU, he was moved to hospice Friday. Last I heard they were still unsure of why he died, could have been a massive infection or leukemia. Tomorrow is the wake and I'll be able to go to that since my aunt is watching Lex. Wednesday is the funeral and because my dcp has flaked on us yet again I won't be able to attend that.

Today was supposed to be my day "off". No Lex, no housework, the only thing I had to do was my sinus CT scan this afternoon. Lex was at daycare for all of 2 hours before our daycare lady called. Her fridge was broken and she had to close. She called me tonight to let me know she won't be open tomorrow because she still won't have a fridge and to tell me she sprained her rotator cuff and isn't supposed to do any lifting for a few days, she proceeds to tell me how she's on flexeril and darvocet. Like I'm going to want my son there while she's on darvocet, hell I don't watch Lex alone when I'm on darvocet let alone him and 7 other kids. This is not the first time she has flaked on us. I would say we are upwards of 10 days since Lex started there 3 1/2 months ago. We are in the market for a new daycare but no luck.

I think when Lex goes to bed I may have to curl up and cry for a while...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

T minus 5 days

Only 5 days until I know for sure if my egg caught up with Nate's swimmers. That's right the femara appears to have worked. I'm eager to test even if it may not be positive. No real signs or symptoms yet, but that's alright.

I have been having some problems outside of the ttc ring. My joints have been aching to no avail. I have ulnar neuropathy in my right arm which often causes my elbow down through my fingers to hurt but lately my left hip and both shoulders have been bad too. I go see my dr on the 2nd for my annual physical so I'll ask her about it then. I worry about arthritis setting in this early, for goodness sake I'm 25.

Monday I'm supposed to have a CT scan of my sinuses since I was treated for a sinus infection back around Christmas and it doesn't seem to have cleared up. The headache is worse some days than others and I just hope this doesn't lead to another surgery, I'd kinda like to have only one more when it's time to have the next baby.

On a side note I want to send out a congrats to Nancy and her new man Karl, Elana for passing her 3 hour GTT and Katie for making it through her first day of work. Big hugs to Sarah R, let me know if there is anything I can do for you honey. And gentle hugs for Shayna, I know you are in a rough spot honey but when you hit bottom the only way to go is up, you are always in my thoughts.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Happy New Year

January 1st brought me the first cycle of treatment for baby number two. Today I start taking femara in hopes that I will ovulate and be so blessed as to catch the egg. To be honest I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. I'm excited to have a chance but nervous that it won't work. I'm okay with the possibility of not getting pregnant on the first go round but nervous that it won't even cause me to ovulate. And then comes the nervous nature if it does work and I get pregnant, I am nervous about how I'll be able to handle a 2 year old and newborn. I know it's do-able my mom did it with me and Karl but I know deep down I'm not as strong as she was. All I know is deep down I know my family isn't complete with just the three of us, I hope one more will settle my need for children since that's all Nate agrees to but time will tell. I have my fingers crossed that this cycle works.